What is scary? It's the prospect of what can happen tomorrow. I'm realizing that I can face today and the current state of everything but I am unadequately prepared for what tomorrow will make me face. At one point in the past, I have changed to a completely different person. I do not think like my old self. I do not carry out my life the way I once did. Scared of pain and suffering, I shy away from what would have been a great excitment before.

Now, I have to ask myself why I have changed this way. I guess one way to look at it is that I have grown up and fully understand the consequences of my actions. Another way to look at this is that I have fit myself into this image of a man society has demanded of me. Whatever have happened to the idea of a man I wanted to be?